Sunday, September 30, 2012

Below my feet

Here's a new song I'm adding to my workout playlist.  I LOVE the Mumford and Sons.  Great music here so I thought I'd share it.

Below My Feet - Mumford and Sons

You were cold as the blood through your bones
And the light which led us from our chosen homes
Well I was lost

And now I sleep
Sleep the hours that I can't weep
When all I knew was steeped in blackened holes
I was lost

Keep the earth below my feet
For all my sweat, my blood runs weak
Let me learn from where I have been
Keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn
Keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn

And I was still
I was under your spell
When I was told by Jesus all was well
So all must be well

Just give me time
You know your desires and mine
Wrap my flesh in ivy and in twine
For I must be well

Keep the earth below my feet
For all my sweat, my blood runs weak
Let me learn from where I have been
Well keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn
Keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn

Keep the earth below my feet
For all my sweat, my blood runs weak
Let me learn from where I have been
Keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn
Keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Just left Mom's house... Wow!

She's looking great!  Whatever you're doing, keep it up.  It's obviously working!

The Little Workout that packs a HUGE wallop

As I have been showing some signs of over-training due to my age and general out of fitness, I had been looking for something to do that would be effective. I have done Callenetics and Fluidity, and I really enjoy those, but in looking for more body weight type exercising I found myself back to one that Tigersue and I had heard about years ago, but didn't look much more into it: T-tapp.

I got the basic workout after reading the book and trying to understand what the woman, Theresa Tapp was trying to do when she created her movements. They are pretty unique, even to how she gets you into alignment.

You can watch many of her video's on YouTube, and when I watched I wasn't sure at all how I felt about it. But I got the basic workout anyway.

Fifteen minutes. That is all the basic is. Don't let the time fool you though, I felt like I had workout two hours in a gym running on a treadmill and lifting weights when I was done. I often don't get all the reps- and the most she does is eight. I am going to have a long learning month just trying to do it without wanting to fall over.

Just getting your limbs in the right places, and make sure you keep your spine in correct alignment to your knees and feet is work!

I have only managed to do it about every other day thus far. In between I think I am moving some stuff around inside- lymph she would say, but I truly have no idea, I feel just sort of yucky. Not right after the workout, but about two hours after and after I do my dry skin brushing. Then I start slowly feeling better over the next day, and then do it again. I am noticing I am feeling less icky though, so I am hoping that will so go away- it seems to be common when I read on the forums.

Maybe there is a method to the madness

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

The Frustrations of Non-support

So this place is a great place. My kids that do come here run in and cheer, my sister knows and understands what I am doing and the SCIENCE behind the reasons for what I am doing.

But there are a holdout or two that think that I am just stupid that I do not understand the concept of calorie in calorie out. It's frustrating. If I the stupid fat woman would just cut my calories like they are I would get their results!

If you go wandering other type diets out there and the forums you hear the plaintive questions from those, often women of my age, wondering what they can do to NOT be so hungry on those much lower calories. Calories that are high in "complex" carbohydrates, like potatoes ( that we used to know would put fat on most farm animals) and wheat products, that we are starting to know is NOT the same wheat as what granny ate, and I am not talking the whole grain part. I am talking the gmo part. Those things raise insulin in ALL of us. That is right ALL people. We know this. That is what that one scale is all about. How fast it raises it compared to the standard of table sugar. Now to put it simply some of us have the raised insulin, which then stores the fat but the ignores pulling the stored energy out for cell fuel. Causing.. yes.. you guess it.. HUNGER! Some can handle carbs great for good. I don't know what causes that. Some people get fat and some.. worse for them believe it or not don't get fat, but then suffer skinny metabolic syndrome. Worse for them because we still incorrectly related slimness with health. Probably NOT our best marker, it can be one, but isn't the best one.

I still say even the "healthy" should be taking their blood sugar several times a week to see how their food is affecting them. But that is neither here nor there.

Tigersue and I were to metabolic syndrome, and I am pretty sure I was having all the symptoms of type 2 diabetes including what I now know as distressing kidney issues. The only GOOD way out of that is to fix what causes it .. cutting out the sugars.

I wish that someone else could figure out I am NOT stupid and I do know what I am doing. WHY do I need that bread or potato? I can't think of a nutritional reason why. Desserts are fun, but I don't NEED them. What is wrong with me NOT eating them? I don't have to have the chips, sodas or CANDY that one of them to this day STILL eats as part of a "diet". I won't and can't understand why people are thinking I am the stupid one for cutting those out! I don't have to eat pasta to live. I do need protein and I do need fat. Brains and muscles need those! My liver is quite capable of creating the glucose I need with what I give it.

My way of eating means I can buy a chocolate bar to help out a friend at work, as her son was having a fund raiser, and not crave or eat the thing but give it to my daughter. What pray tell is wrong with that?

I do understand calorie in calorie out, but we are not science beakers! I can do the same thing for weeks and lose nothing and then 10 pounds, or five or 3 are off in a day or two with no rhyme or reason to it. That tells me that the old calorie in calorie out needs more understanding-science- doesn't know everything yet.

I know I have to be patient because I know the lack of knowledge is some of the WRONG things my dear father thinks about low carb diets. He still thinks High protein is low carb and I am closer to trying to follow moderate- more around 70 grams a day because of gluconensis- see if that smart kid knows what that is! Volek and Phinney are right on the money about that. When I lowered the protein and upped the fat the need to snack went completely away. Heck I miss a meal or two on occasion, just because I am not hungry.

Perhaps when these young things are 50+ women having had 5 babies and doesn't want to have to be HUNGRY to lose weight will want to get back to me at that point. But that isn't ever going to happen.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Really Discouraged

I left home from work this morning really discouraged with a lot of things.  Things are really difficult right now.  I'm ready to be done with night shift, but still have another month to go.  I haven't done much of anything as far as exercise in at least a month.  There were a lot of interruptions and changes and I just gave up.  I kept telling myself that as soon as Grayson was here things would calm down and I could get really serious about it all.  Kind of a funny statement there, huh?  As soon as a newborn child gets here my life will calm down.  Well it won't.

And now I've rewritten this post 3 or 4 times and after reading it I'm still not sure what I'm trying to say.  It's a really difficult time for me right now and it's really dragging my spirit through the mud.  It comes to a point where I've tried to change my lifestyle 3 or 4 times now and it just keeps getting put on the back burner.  You REALLY want to give up at that point.  You keep telling yourself that you keep failing so what's the point of going on?  I really feel like I'm lying to myself time and time again, so why lie to myself?  It's time to be honest with myself.  I keep dropping the ball on this, committing to this blog and committing to a healthier version of me.  I keep imagining that I'm at war with someone or something.  And whatever forces that are out there that are battling against me keep winning.  It's eating at me and is a huge cause for my depression right now.  The silly part is it's just me; I'm at war with myself.  The REALLY stupid part is I have the capabilities to win.

For those people that have been healthy their whole lives, this is why it's hard for people to get in shape.  Because you will try, and try, and try, and fail each time.  By the 3rd or 4th time, whatever words you use to motivate yourself starts to feel like lies.  You start to feel like each time you say, "This will be the time" it feels fake.  You ask yourself "What about the time before?  Or before that?  Or before that?  Or before that?  Or before that?  You've heard this all before."  You become discouraged because you feel like you're lying to yourself, that you're a fake person and everyone around you can see it.  Everytime you tell them "this will be the time."  They roll their eyes at you and say, "sure it is."

None of it really matters, because I have to do it again.  I got to say the same words I use to motivate myself to do it, even if I believe I'm lying to myself.  And maybe I'll fail a few more times.  Maybe people will even start to say how I'm fake.  That doesn't matter because none of them can be a bigger critic of myself than I am.  So here I am again, trying to motivate myself to get in shape again.  Maybe I will fail again, maybe this will be the time I actually succeed.  It also doesn't matter because if I fail again I'll just pick myself back up and start over again.  Because in this case, even if I would be honest with myself by giving up, it's far worse than lying to myself and never giving up.

Jimmy Moore and his N=1 experiment

I have been trying to make sure to keep up with Jimmy and his experiments in nutritional ketosis.

I really respect this guy, but in one respect he is a little frustrating: He refuses to share some of his food logs. I can respect and understand his reasons, but I am not sure e understands why some of us are intrigued and would like him to throw us a bone, and it has to do with how some of us learn. I am one of those that likes to see what are you doing so that I can understand, then I can usually adapt for me.

Well blessings from heaven, Jimmy hasn't come through, but I had a list of menus or access to them all along from "The Art and Science of Low Carbohydrate Performance". There is even a link to menus which I will give to my sis and Jordan and any other family member intrigued by nutritional ketosis way of eating.

I think with the guidelines they give I can make a go of this.

Here are their guidelines: and I take this from Chapter 11 in their book

1. Low in Carbs
- enough to induce nutritional ketosis and accelerate fat burning
- Less than 50 g/day for most people

2. Moderate Protein
-0.6 to 1.0 grams per pounds of LEAN body mass

3. Enough Fat
-Majority of energy
-Variable depending on goals of weight loss or maintenance

4. The Right Kinds of Fat
-Eat Monos and saturates for fuel
-Limit High Polyunsaturated sources (soy,corn, cottonseed)

5. When in Doubt, Eat Less Carbs

6. When in Doubt, eat More Fat.

I got a clue why tuna or chicken salad gets hard to eat: it it using mayo with a lot of soy oil, which of course is most mayo. So I guess I have to stick with making it. It would be nice if high oleic Safflower was easier to get- just because Extra Virgin Olive Oil is lovely stuff but strong for Mayo. I guess I just keep trying to figure it all out.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Gelatin post by Dana Carpendar, Amino Acid balance

I just read this cool post by Dana Carpendar. I have been working on making my own bone broth to have around, or to make soup with. I'm not a big soup eater, but I have found making my own broth like this I actually like my soup the day I make it. I'm still not big about eating it for left overs but if I have lots of broth I will do that.

So this post makes me want to go get some plain gelatin. Maybe it will help me sleep, and help other issues.