Tuesday, November 20, 2012

A bit lost

I have been so frustrated the past couple of months  I'm in that huge stall that I have been struggling with since September.  My goal was to be down another 20 pounds by November and I'm still in that same weight range I was in the end of August.  I know most of it is my fault, my eating has been way off.  Otherwise I have continued to do my workouts, walking as much as I can, and switching from the firm to T-tapp.  I really love the t-tapp but I'm not sure I'm getting my upper body working as much as I should.  This is probably due to the fact that my legs aren't strong enough to hold the t-tapp position during the upper body workouts.  I know my legs are getting stronger, and some of my weight issue can be due to the t-tapp, but not all of it when inches aren't budging and fat% has creeped back up.   My headaches have started back up this past couple of weeks.  They were going away, but I haven't had a day without a headache in at least 2 weeks.  bleh.

So I decided last night I needed to log my food for a bit.  It might keep me more honest, and thinking, hey, I'm going to write this down, do I really want to see the amount of carbs in what I'm eating.  I usually don't like to write down my food, but I think for the next few weeks, at least to the end of Natasha's wedding, and perhaps through the holidays complete it would be a good idea.

I am trying to figure out the best way to do T-Tapp.  I am doing a Monday, Wed, Friday with the total workout, then on Saturday I only do the basic+ part.  I do this because I really think 4 days a week is the way  for me to go with the every other day schedule and with Sunday out of the equation, I need to do something on Saturday.  I hope that isn't too much since she says less is more, but with how stubborn my body is, I don't want to relax too much.  I'm even feeling like I need to add in some Firm upper body because I am honestly not feeling the muscle work in my upper body.  At least not the way my lower is feeling it.

So here is my pity party, I would love my kids to sometimes think that mom has goals that she needs to keep, and to remember that.  Yes, I'm whining, there it is.  Done. :)

Still Here... still chipping away at the mountain

Getting healthy isn't a one time event. It is described very eloquently by Charlotte Siems of T-tapp fame:

I especially want to encourage More to Lose T-Tappers - Yes, You Can! Time would have passed by no matter what I did, but it was the little day-by-day, moment-by-moment, workout-by-workout choices I made that added up to big changes, not some huge, one-time life-changing event. No magic pill, no easy solution - just baby steps and a fundamental shift in thinking about exercise and eating.

This time I am going very slowly, forced by middle age and a schedule that I have to fit health into. But I figure I will have the skills down, and habits finally formed.

I still fight myself.. sweets are still a huge draw. I want them. They are not good for me, but I want them. I know we understand what is good for us but sometimes doing it, being the good patient is so hard. It is like someone who thinks that eating the same  way they have that has gotten them where they are is do-able. I assure you it isn't.

You can't just sit. You have to figure out something even if the movement you do is from a chair at first, or for good, but just move something.

I don't mean to preach! :) This is more for  me.

But I have been doing my T-tapp workouts, and will ramp it up a bit more sometime in the New Years.

I just didn't want anyone thinking this is less of a focus for me.